Toxic

I should have posted it as 'toxic temptation', but anyways...you only get tempted when you have the freedom to do so. When no prudent hold stands over you to pull back from the great precipice inviting you in. When everything that's wrong feels...wrong, but good...at least till that point of time. You know, deep within your soul its not good for you. It's like nicotine, or alcohol...you know it's bad..you know it ain't good for you but it pulls you, closer till you have fallen over completely. Sometimes you wan someone to pull you back..to tell you not to go there..with that outward outrage you show, lies an inner feeling of relief, that you saved yourself, before the going got too worse.The other highly toxic mix to this martini is man's biggest fear: LONELINESS. It makes you want all sorts of crazy things, from wanting to sing a Whitney Houston number, to sleeping with your ex when you have had too many glasses of Merlot. Loneliness is toxic. And very dangerous. Sometimes financially beneficial too, I mean, Vinci, Pope, Picasso, Taylor Swift, Adele gave their super hits due to bouts of loneliness. It won them a lot of appreciation not to mention money. So does self-loathing.......its just.......toxic